eggshells and stagnated bullshit

whatever.

annoyed.

frustrated.

watching people waste their time and lives in useless circles irritates me.

WATCHING PEOPLE I TRULY CARE ABOUT IS ABOUT THE WORST THING EVER.

i WATCH MY CLOSEST friend just do these thing and complain and rant and vent about their lives but they just dont really change anything about their lives, they dont seem to look for the lessons in the things that happen to them. i can talk and talk and listen and try to get them to look in a new direction only to watch them sink back into their mudhole, to wallow and whine.


i hate it. its as bad as my mother. i think she is taking a stepforward and then there she goes three steps back.

i try to get them to focus on working for the future but they are just so stuck doing things in these weird not getting anything done ways.

its frustrating and heartbreaking and i cant do shit for them.

i have so much going on in my own life when i do take time away from reading, gaming, my man or my kid to spend time on them i dont wanna spend it talking over the same shit they wont change.

i feel so ignored and i just dont feel like i have friends anymore.

somedays i dont want to even talk to them. i dont want to hear the new drama the wrapped them selves in in their desparate attempt to escape life.

all i hear are excuses and bullshit.

i have tried being gentle and nice but i just cant do it.

im not nice.

im a realist. i look forward and plan ahead. if something goes wrong i cant waste time figuring out why or who caused it. i learn how to avoid it happening again and fix things.

i feel like im losing them, but i cant use up all my spare energy and time trying to help them when they dont want to help themselves.

they are their own people, and sometimes you just gotta let people make their own mistakes.

whatever i guess.