Mourning

(this post was started and i didnt know what to write. so imma leave it blank until the muse comes back.)

well here we are.

Well here i am being a leech on the economy. I feel bad about it, if that is any consolation.

BTW, by "leech on the economy" i mean that i no longer have a job and i am getting assistance. i get bout 200 a month in food stamps for me and my kiddo. i dont have a job because i couldnt get to and from work with out a car and i couldnt afford a car without a job. my job wasn't making enough to get a car.

so here i am living with my mom and her husband, steve.

Which im sure the world knows by now is the best name ever. i mean really.

Over the hedge
 The hedges name is steve

Peanut butter snickers
 the sharks eat steve and say he is delicious

cloudy with a chance of meatballs
 the monkey.

names are hard, as a parent i got to name a person. a future adult. i had to pick a name that:

didnt rhyme with anything crude
didnt sound crude
doesnt sound funny or rhyme with anything funny.

its hard. ohhh and it can be

ashley amber brittany tiffany, jake josh peter john


not that i hate those names but.. wayyyy over used.

i ended up with

Alexandria Paris-Marie.

for short we call her Lexy.

yes i know it rhymes with Sexy but everyone we know knows better. hopefully sexy will be outdated by the time she gets to school. if not we can call her by a different name. alex, andria, marie,paris, w/e she wants to be called.


wow this post derailed quickly. well im off to kill zant and ganon.

laters

A day in the life of prego me.

 So yesterday after not sleeping all night i had a doc appt at 1015 am. I didn't sleep cause i spent the night chatting and playing Xbox 360 with Ryansan. just bsing and normal stuff. well anyway i have decided the from 6 am to 10 am there is a horrible time shift and it passes horribly slow.i just figured it was school but no, the earth defiantly turns slower during that time. i have figured it out.

Anyway, so i got Ryan up at like....945 and was like dude...gotta go to the doctors. hes like yeah cool im up. so i ate a bowl of cereal and we went off to the hospital. I'm not fond of the hospital. makes me nervous....all the sick and dead ppl.

So we go in (yeah i drug him with to my prego appt. haha poor dude) and they call me back and i do the weight and pee in a cp thing. lost a pound >< not good. but the pee test was fine. so we go to the lil exam room and i sit on the table and chat with ryan while i wait for my doc.

*side note* there was no one else there. wth takes these docs so long to come see me? i mean...i know your like...at work but..what if i had somewhere to be? or i was really impatient?lol idc just curious what they do while i wait...

so she comes in. it the doc i haven't seen in a month, they been trading me around between 2-3 docs but they finally deciding who is in charge of me.

she tell me i lost weight.

 i tell her i eat 

she tells me eat more,

 i say im active,

 shes says good, 

so now i drink ensure to increase my calories...its not bad kinda tastes like melted icecream.

well we get on with the exam. 

I lay down on the table which is far too high off the ground. dangerous. she rolls my shirt up over the belly and does some poking and feeling on the tum-tum and then measures something...i have yet to figure out wth she is measuring....my belly? idk. im not a doctor. lol.

and shes like "oh well she seems to be growing and im guessing a 6 pound baby here"

now i just wanna add i haven't seen her in a month...i hope the baby grew...*eyeroll*

also i wish doctors would be more specific about things.

then she does the magic wand with noise box trick. (fetal heart monitor)

i always smile hearin that staticy little lubb-dubb.

then she tell me more about eating cause clearly i suck at it. XD

then she tells me she want me to drink at least 1-2 ensure a day.

Hurrah...

then i told bout my evil and vindictive gall bladder

she says that's natural for it to act up but since you have a history if it get really bad just come up here and we will make it okay.

*side note numbah 2*

i am so tired of hearing how everything is natural. well duh its natural that doesn't mean it doesnt freak me out!....jeeze.

so we make it outta there yeah ryan just sat quietly in the corner lol felt a lil bad for him.

then we went to walmart and got completely confused

the whole place has been rearranged...sucks...

but we found the stuff we needed. jeans, ensure, and pepto smarties lol,

then we hitup Ihop and there is just alotta weird lookin ppl around here...and strange children...

so headed to the house did some more sitting around bsing...supposed to go to srs and wic but...didnt...lol procrastinated it. my bad. then i fell asleep...oh well... woke up mom was making dinner.

cheese burgers are yummy....mmm and tgi fridays tater skins mmmm yummy.

then it was just sorta tv and chatting nothing real exciting.

then ryan went to hang with some friend and mom and steve went to bed so i played on fb accepting moms gifts on her apps, til i fell asleep.

and that was my day yesterday. nothing real exciting but thats was my day.

You wont see Me cry cause i wont let you win. I wont hurt you cause i wont let me win.

you say nasty things

i say nothing

you say hurtful things

i say nothing

you say im a horrible person, im slutty, im easy, and shame my name

i say maybe your right, i mean im supposed to trust you, we are friends remember?

you say that i was leading you on and i meant to smash your heart.

i cant hear me saying no over your voice telling me im a liar.

you want to hurt me.

i just want to be your friend

you wanna see me cry

i just wanna die since im such a horrid person

but you wont see me cry, cause i wont let you win, and i wont hurt you cause i wont let myself win

(this as written to/about my ex boyfriend)

I don't mean to be mean, but its all i can be.

i snap at you on accident

you let it slide but your irritation shows

i have effed up

you let it go

i have betrayed you

you have forgiven me

i dont understand you

you are my friend

i was pregnant with your ex boyfriends baby

you were there smiling, and wishing me well

i have a baby and need help

you just lost your job and your here for me

i have a short fuse and a sharp tongue somedays

you have patience and tough skin.

i dont mean to be mean

you are truely to great of a person

thank you

=^-^=

(this was writtien to my best friend while i was pregnant)

I didnt know.

i didnt know you would break my heart when you cried.

i didnt know you would melt my heart when you smiled

i didnt know you would shatter my thoughts with a sound

i didnt know you would become what my world revolved around

i didnt know you would change so much about me

i know now you are amazing

i kn w now you are my darling

i know now you are why i do what i have to

i know now you are a reason for me

i hope you grow healthy

i hope you grow smart

i hope you grow compassionate

i hope you grow beautiful

i love you lil girl

 my Alexandria Paris-Marie Davis

Omeagle Part 1

I went to omeagle and played spy. This is what i got.

Question to discuss: does anyone have any reason these two should not be married?
Stranger 2: Don't know the other?
Stranger 1: nope
Stranger 2: Wait, which two?
Stranger 1: I have no reason why we should get married
Stranger 2: Us two?
Stranger 1: I think it's us two, yes.
Stranger 2: Yeah, I don't know you. ^^
Stranger 1: And actually, we pretty much are guaranteed not to get married.
Stranger 2: I have no way to know if you'd beat or kill me, if you're even old enough, anything.
Stranger 1: Because if I wanted to marry you, it'd be illegal.
Stranger 2: Let me guess.... Under 18?
Stranger 1: And if it were legal for us to be married, I wouldn't want to marry you.
Stranger 1: Gay.
Stranger 2: I agree.
Stranger 2: Awesome.
Stranger 2: Male or female?
Stranger 1: Cept for the whole marriage thing :/
Stranger 1: Guy.
Stranger 2: Mkay.
Stranger 2: If I was a guy, I'd totally marry you. ^^
Stranger 1: If only you could...
Stranger 2: I think in NY or some place...
Stranger 1: in that hypothetical situation that is
Stranger 2: Maybe Cali? I can't remember.
Stranger 1: NY, MA
Stranger 1: nope, cali it is still illegal
Stranger 1: and iowa of all places
Stranger 2: Damn.
Stranger 2: Same with Colorado...
Stranger 2: Which is surprising, as we've got Mary-J legalized.
Stranger 1: In colorado?
Stranger 1: Surely you mean decriminalized?
Stranger 1: Or medical exemption?

Stranger 2: Yeah, probably.
Stranger 2: Shows how much I pay attention to legal stuff lol.
Stranger 1: Eh, it's good to know.
Stranger 1: Though pot may as well be legal, at least on the west coast in big cities
Stranger 2: If you plan on voting. I plan on avoiding legal shit and working my ass off to go through college and then getting a better job.
Stranger 2: Yeah, pretty much. Being 18 sucks now because everyone thinks you've tried pot and everything.
Stranger 1: Well if you haven't tried it, I would recommend it.
Stranger 2: Why?
Stranger 1: I'm not a stoner by any measure, but it's a lot of fun.
Stranger 2: Mkay...
Stranger 2: Lol. Hell, I don't even have my driver's license. XP
Stranger 1: I've got a license, but no car :/
Stranger 1: though I don't really need one since I moved for school
Stranger 1: still though, it'd be nice to have
Stranger 2: My fiance has a car...
Stranger 2: Poor car broke down though... Need $770 to pay for it...
Stranger 2: Luckily her parents are paying for it.
Stranger 2: It's going in tomorrow... 
Stranger 1: I hate car expenses.
Stranger 1: I love cars
Stranger 1: but they are so expensive to have around
Stranger 2: Yeah...
Stranger 2: 1998 Dodge Neon....
Stranger 1: Haha
Stranger 2: We named the car Miranda, lol.
Stranger 1: Maybe on the lower end of expensive.
Stranger 2: Well, it costed 500 to get from some one. 
Stranger 2: It takes 26$ of gas to get her from 1/4 tank to full.
Stranger 1: not bad
Stranger 2: But she spent 6 months on a curb until my fiance got her license. 
Stranger 2: So the car has some dead spots in her tires, and a few engine problems.
Stranger 2: But it isn't that bad, you're right.
Stranger 2: Enough about my issues, what's up in life with you?
Stranger 1: I'm just hangin'
Stranger 1: Haha
Stranger 2: Lol.
Stranger 1: Nothing.
Stranger 1: School and all that.
Stranger 2: Nice. What grade?
Stranger 1: Freshman in college
Stranger 1: Yay.
Stranger 2: Nice. ^^ I'm going into college next year. XP
Stranger 1: Ah.
Stranger 2: Good school?
Stranger 1: It's tons of fun.
Stranger 1: Yeah, pretty high level school
Stranger 2: Nice. ^^ What major?
Stranger 1: Undecided as of yet.
Stranger 1: Likely a humanities based field
Stranger 1: Pre law maybe
Stranger 1: I'm really tired.
Stranger 2: Me too lol.
Stranger 1: hasta luego
Stranger 2: Bed time for bozos, eh?
Stranger 2: Au revoir.
Stranger 1: Yep C:
Stranger 2: Have a nice life, ok? ^^
Stranger 1: buena notte
Stranger 2 has disconnected

Interesting what people share.
Question to discuss: we have women cause...
Stranger 2: cause is not the proper word
Stranger 2: cause /= because
Stranger 1: we have men cause??????
Stranger 1: what a stupid question?????????????????
Stranger 2: well, someone needs to run the world
Stranger 1: yea girls, run the world, girls
Stranger 2: since when?
Stranger 1: who run the world, girls
Stranger 2: kind of hard to run the world from the kitchen 
Stranger 1: check out Beyonce!

Grammar Nazis and misogynists are everywhere. Watch yourself out there.
Question to discuss: you are dead
Stranger 1: oh no !!!!!!!
Stranger 2: i am 0kay with that 0_0
Stranger 1 has disconnected

Death isnt so scary.

Question to discuss: your in a valley, its midday. stranger 2 is tied to a tree.
Stranger 2: peace
Stranger 2: bitch
Stranger 1: can i live him there
Stranger 1: lool
Stranger 2: you're stranger 2
Stranger 2: not me
Stranger 1: na broseph
Stranger 1: you are
Stranger 2: BRO IM NOT YOUR BRO
Stranger 2: BRO
Stranger 1: can u not rea
Stranger 1: ddddd
Stranger 2: actually I'm a pretty humane person
Stranger 2: i would at least take your wallet
Stranger 1: bro and the word broseph aare not the same word
Stranger 2: and piss on you
Stranger 2: then walk away
Stranger 2: WALK AWAY
Stranger 1: shit son owneddddd
Stranger 2 has disconnected

illiteracy and bros.