Tragic

I hate you. but i want you. i hate him but i want him too. i dont want to lose another person. but i dont want you either
 here come tears
fucking bullshit.
i just want to be happy
i dont want to be have epiphanies everyday
i wanna live in a happy little bubble
i dont wanna think about the future
i dont wanna think about all the possiblities
i dont wanna be smart
i wanna be dumb and average
im sick of thinking and knowing

i wanna be in his arms. i want the warmth and comfort from some one i love. i want him to want me cause i am a person. not cause ill suck his dick or cause i have boobs. cause i am a breathing living person. not cause he had crazy hormones. or cause he wanted someone younger than him. or cause his girlfriend was dull. or cause he likes a certain kink.

i am sick of being loved for that sorta thing