ead people and dreams

i have had a lost loved one enter my dreams a few times over the last few years. the first time he told me it was okay. 0
and he visits at least once a year.
once he was wearing a shirt with his face on it.

i almost died of laughter when i woke up through the tears

a few months a after he was buried i had a dream where he had me wash his hair and it started falling out and i said well...thats what happens... he seemed sad.

but i think he is mostly at peice

that guy

i dunno bout other people but i been caught on this one guy for a long time
i didnt relize i was caught on him till he  went away
i was sad
will he was gone a guy i thought i was in love with commited suicide.
so i became a bit obsessive of the one who went away
and maybe i had some misplaced emotion
but i am very sure i have very real emotions for the one who went away

and now that he has come back i know i have feelings and love for him
i just hope he knows and doesnt think im bullshitting him for some crazy reason

i cant really figure out why you would fake emotions and love for some one

thats just...evil

me releasing my emotions

yeah havent written in a bit a guess it wearing on me. so

yeah been busy and tonight i had a dream that i lost my babysitting gig in a super fake ass bullshit way
and then i went to a beautiful water garden park place and dance very intimately with a friend of mine i havent seen in a while and then told him to to tell him wife i said hi. he said she would be mad. she wasnt a super sexual person so he was allowed to have sex with other girls as long as she knew about it and wasnt a being a whore about it.

so was was like well you wanna?
in real life i kinda always wanted to but when we hung out i was like 16 and he was 22. so nothing ever happen lol.

in the dream we went to like a little pill popper hide out and snuggled on a mattress for a bit but never had sex XD

then i got up and left and then everything went all wacky.

but i did get a tattoo idea from the montage of stuff that went on.

so thats good.

i wish i could really show you every thing that happened but technology hasnt caught up so poo on that </3